This is my resolution.

Met nelson today, i haven't seen him for like 4 years haha. It's funny how 4 years and studying in new york can change a person so much but i guess it's for the better. Anyway we drove all the way to Tampines today cos i wanted to check out the ikea there, i was so freaking disappointed it's just a bigger version of the ikea at queensway and everything is the same. We ended up in boring town after that but we chilled and talked, it was nice =)

Recently my blogs has been all about going out and having fun with people. I don't usually have a habit of writing about who i've been out with and useless things i've been doing unless it really absolutely made my day. I was just trying to remind myself that i do have a lot of people in my life that do care enough about me to want to spend time with me and that i have no reason to feel like i'm lonely or in need of someone.

I've been reading a book about coping with love obsession. For as long as anyone has known me, they would also know about my undying obsession for finding someone special and falling in love. I've come to realise that loving for me has become more of an illness rather than a virtue. It comes from my childhood of rejection, never quite fitting in with the crowd. I'm under a false impression that if someone were to love me then i would finally feel accepted and belonged but love isn't what it seems in the theatres, it's hardly a fairytale. If there's anything i've learnt from romance movies, it has to be that love is only meant for beautiful people. There is a reason why Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt are chosen for the part of Mr and Mrs Smith because only beautiful people can find love and what do you know...they live happily after off screen too haha.