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New Year, New Blog

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bah humbug

My dad has a date tonight haha. Guess i'm the only one that is going to be alone for 2007 sheesh =( but I was the one to tell my dad to go find someone else cos i don't want to take care of him next time haha.

I have a dinner gathering with my ex classmates from mg tonight. Last night i was telling stephanie how it was going to be a school theme and we were suppose to wear school uniforms and all that. I was just checking my message history on msn with my friend to get the address and all that and then it hit me that maybe i never had a conversation with her about school uniforms and it was a dream i had. But she could have messaged me on the phone and i have been deleting my messages so i'm really confused now haha. It's so idiotic right and it would seems a little odd to ask if i am suppose to wear my school uniform if the conversation never happened. Man i feel like such a shit head now haha.

Sins of the love addict

and now i am facing the repercussions of it. It is unlike me to blame anyone else for the ill decisions that i make but i wonder if people blame themselves as much as i blame myself. I guess it doesn't matter, i don't need or want anyone responsible for me. I am thinking if it could have been all about timing but then there really isn't a good time for shit to happen.

This is my resolution.

Met nelson today, i haven't seen him for like 4 years haha. It's funny how 4 years and studying in new york can change a person so much but i guess it's for the better. Anyway we drove all the way to Tampines today cos i wanted to check out the ikea there, i was so freaking disappointed it's just a bigger version of the ikea at queensway and everything is the same. We ended up in boring town after that but we chilled and talked, it was nice =)

Recently my blogs has been all about going out and having fun with people. I don't usually have a habit of writing about who i've been out with and useless things i've been doing unless it really absolutely made my day. I was just trying to remind myself that i do have a lot of people in my life that do care enough about me to want to spend time with me and that i have no reason to feel like i'm lonely or in need of someone.

I've been reading a book about coping with love obsession. For as long as anyone has known me, they would also know about my undying obsession for finding someone special and falling in love. I've come to realise that loving for me has become more of an illness rather than a virtue. It comes from my childhood of rejection, never quite fitting in with the crowd. I'm under a false impression that if someone were to love me then i would finally feel accepted and belonged but love isn't what it seems in the theatres, it's hardly a fairytale. If there's anything i've learnt from romance movies, it has to be that love is only meant for beautiful people. There is a reason why Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt are chosen for the part of Mr and Mrs Smith because only beautiful people can find love and what do you know...they live happily after off screen too haha.

Rainy wednesday

Went gyming at ronny's place in the evening. He's someone who really tickles me, i always end up laughing till i get breathless. There was a huge gym ball and we started playing basketball with it (in a really confined place), it was fun haha. We headed out for beer after showering and stuff but everywhere we went were just about to close and we drove for like an hour before deciding to get some beer and chill out at his old house. We went to a store to get some beer but it was after 1am so they couldn't sell us beer but he somehow manage to sweet talk the 'lady' into selling us some haha..it was pretty funny and we got some icecream too =)

he has an even bigger gym ball in his old house...played soccer with it haha. =)

Box you day

I watched The Holiday with watson today. I didn't like it, it was draggy, cliche, predictable...like any other silly romance movie. New year resolution for 2007....stay away from romance movies. I've been so snappy this christmas season, christmas just ain't what it use to be. I think the person i spent christmas with last year kinda killed christmas for me. Maybe it's time for me to grow up.........christmas is just another day except with turkey on the dinner table.

Do they walk away from things that easily or do they have greater discipline as to not looking back?

Merry Christmas

It is usually christmas tradition for me to wake up early on christmas morning and watch christmas cartoons but i didn't wake up till 1pm. I was out beering with loi, kenneth and some of their friends till 3am last night. Xiaojuan was suppose to come along too but she couldn't make it. Anyway I think i can't hold my liqour well, puked again haha and that just help me decide on my new years resolutution. But i'm pretty happy about puking my christmas dinner calories out haha =)

Draft of Xinpei's New Years Resolutions for 2007:
1. Stay away from alcohol, chocolates and men boys
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I just realise i didn't receive a single christmas present this year haha and only 1 christmas card!, i guess it comes from being a bitch the whole year round. Well actually xiaojuan and loi still owe me a present la haha, always late on presents and christmas cards and i guess the rest of the 'friends' i've come in contact with this year are just bad investments and bloody ingrates haha. Merry Christmas =)